I feel better now. I knew I should be strong. I knew there were a lot of people who were different from me. I knew this world is cold and it might be worse than ever. Even though, we still have to grow up, no one can make you feel hurt except yourself.
I saw a lot of people they were in the past and now, but they won't be in my future. I can decide if they still stay in my life. That's my life.
Some people you can just ignore them, some people you can just let them calm down, amplify the distance between you and them.
Life is a lie, life is always so hard. I have to be strong, stronger than ever.
本來很沈的心情,
無意間在youtube的網站上..
試著type :EMOTION IN MOTION
我最喜歡的80年代西洋流行歌曲,
沒想到, 竟然真的被我找到了.
很完整的MTV..
有興趣的人可以Link到這裡看看..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xJc5aygKHQ&mode=related&search=
我只有一些很模糊的印象..
是個很瘦的男主唱騎著一匹馬..
一邊唱歌,
今天看來,還是很有意思的,
很有故事性
歌手Ric Ocasek原本是The Cars合唱團(經典歌曲Drive)的主唱
後來在樂團解散後,
自己發專輯
歌名是Emotion in motion.. 以下是歌詞,
I would do anything to hold on to you
Just about anything until you pull through
I'd hold on to you 'til the stars no longer wink
I'd hold on to you 'til you figure out
Just what to think, 'cos
You're emotion in motion
My magical potion
You're emotion in motion
To me
I would go anywhere to meet up with you
Just about anywhere for one rendezvous
I'd hold on to you 'til the mountains crumble flat
I'd hold on to you 'til you figure out
Just where you're at
You're emotion in motion
My magical potion
You're emotion in motion
To me
I would do anything to hold on to you
Just about anything that you want me to
I'd hold on to you 'til you take it all in stride
I'd hold on to you 'til you want to stay here
By my side
You're emotion in motion
My magical potion
You're emotion in motion
To me
I have done a good presentation today. I thought.
It was my first presentation in this semester. Unfortunetly, I had to read a very difficutl paper. The grammer and usage plus methodology were awful. They used a lot of econometrics since it was a economic paper. Even though, I think this kind paper is beneficial for me. I could read it, if I would like to do.
When I came to class this morning, the other two commenters for this paper told me. It's a really hard paper. I also heard other student did the same comment. I think ' OK, I will be fine'.
I am the last presenter today. Not as usual, I had enough to finish my presentation, and I think I did a good job.
When the class finished, I called my husband and told him about my feeling. He is always my best supporter and make me feel very comfortable. I think that is the reason why I married to him.
Besides, I still have a lot of work which I have to finish it. I think I already woke up and will well prepare to my this semester and the coming qualified exam.
This morning, I fell a little bit sad.
It may caused by music or I am struggling with something.
They will be solved, whatever the tution waived thing or work or study.
I think I have to learn to love myself and do things for myself.
I may do a lot of stupid thing, but it doesn't help me for study well and healthier.
Just think myself. What I need and what I want.
To spend time for myself, not for other else.
I will have a three-day trip to DENVER. It may have much fun.
I will enjoy and record down.
The third year and the fifth semester will be starting.
This coming semester I will take three courses.
Two are required courses: one is advanced health economic, the other one is health policy. It doesn't matter if I like them. The last one is a individual study with my advisor. In my plan, I will finish my proposal in this semester. If I can pass qualify exam on Jan, 2008, I can start my dissertation.
Everything looks good, but the only problem is my english is not good enough.
Every semester I always thought I would have done good, but the truth was crucial. I even didn't reach the basic requirement.
Time was gone so fast. Two years, many things had been changed. Only one thing didn't change. It's my English ability.
It has to make a firm decision.
In coming semester I hope I can make a big progress.
I hope, not I wish.
